I was never that girl to put myself down. Never someone with such a negative attitude. I walked with my head high and never let such stupid remarks, stupid attitudes or stupid situations get in the way of what I wanted to do. I was never perfect, never had the perfect hair, perfect nails, perfect clothes -- perfect life ... but i made it work. I always worked with what I had, helped out those who helped me and always knew what was best. But lately, I don't even know who I've become. I've become someone with such a different mentality & outlook on life. Someone who I never wanted myself to turn into. I still believe that no one will create the image of who I will become but I've let little situations get the best of me, I've let little stupid things stress me out for no reason. I need to pick up my slack. I've been trippin' on who I really am. I can't let my good attitude of whats kept me going for so long down the drain because of lame people & dumb situations. Homework & work is a drag. Yes, I'm thankful for having a job, I'm thankful that I am able to attend a school but once a organised girl is now a disaster. It's like finding a needle in a haystack, I can't seem to find myself. So as of now, I'm doing my best to crawl back to my regular self ... keeping my head up, not letting nothing shake me. I need to realize that I'm worth much more than what I've been recieving & if he doesn't love me someone else will. I need to learn that time will bring me where I need to be. Back to the Richelle with the attitude thinking "God will never throw anything at you that you can't handle". Get my head straight again, stop chasing and start being chased. I've reached my breaking point and stretched beyong means, and now I need to snap back to reality. All I have to say after all this is my heads back up, I'm no longer gonna sit here and be treated like shit. I need to do me for a while, need a break from everything all the stress and dumb shit. Soo ... Christmas break hurry the fuck up! =)

xoxo